it was supposed to be happier

i am ecstatic that barack hussein obama will be the president of this country come january 20. i do not even know how to put into words my sadness, rage, frustration, disappointment that proposition 8 in california has not been called but 'YES' votes seem to be in the lead.

this is what prop 8 said...

Proposition 8:

ELIMINATES RIGHT OF SAME-SEX COUPLES TO MARRY. INITIATIVE CONSTITUTIONAL AMENDMENT

Changes California Constitution to eliminate right of same-sex couples to marry. Provides that only a marriage between a man and a woman is valid or recognized in California.

Fiscal Impact: Over the next few years, potential revenue loss, mainly sales taxes, totaling in the several tens of millions of dollars, to state and local governments. In the long run, likely little fiscal impact to state and local governments.

i am angry that i was not able to do more than donate money and remind people to vote. i am frustrated that it feels like my vote didn't count, though i know it did. i am angry. i am sad. i am confused. i am praying that more ballots are counted today and that this proposition does not pass. please god!